For the first time in like weeks I haven’t spent a week night in the library but in my dorm. I didn’t really do much, just hung around friends and some homework, but not as productively as I would in the library. Waking up this morning, that lazy feeling is still lingering. I can’t let my brain check out, I still have next week and finals afterwards. I skipped my first class because I’m not taking the final for that class. I need to get back into the routine of going to the library again. I can already tell I got a lot of work to do tonight.
I’ve been working my hardest for the past few weeks, late nights in the library and my friends notice because they only see me for dinner and the weekends. I’m trying to salvage my grades because I did so poorly on most of my first exams and for slacking off so hard a month or two ago. I’m still scared I’ll get terrible grades, I know it’s not the end of the world if I get a C+ or lower, but it’s so disappointing because in the end I did this all to myself.
Ugh, I tell myself every semester to work harder than last but it seems it’s become opposite every semester. I also feel like the types of classes I’m taking factor into my motivation as well. I’m taking all required classes that bore the shit out of me, which leads me to skip or not pay attention.
I need to stop complaining. I came here to get an education and an education is what I’m going to get damn it.
Is it my fault now? What, should I censor my own thoughts on my own blog? You read at your own caution.
You knew he never cared so why are you making a big deal cuz I clearly have no standards for myself…honestly I don’t care what happened last night. Don’t care if he cared if he fucked shit up between me and him, there was nothing between us ever. “You aways had someone” don’t care. You don’t know what it feels like dealing with what I do everyday…
Remind me of why I used to always act all hard and tough. I don’t want to look like a dumb ratchet ass bitch. I want respect and how things are about to go down remind me of those times and make me want to bring back that hard and tough exterior.
People don’t know the whole story to what’s going on and most probably never will. Thanks to the people who still stand by being supportive anyways instead of talking shit.
You made a twitter and started following like 13 people. Majority of whom are sports players and celebrities then theres like your best friend and then there’s me…I haven’t had a decent conversation with you since I saw you in September.
I hope you don’t read to far back and see the tweets bout you LOLOL