Positive or negative expectations about circumstances, events, or people that may affect a person’s behavior toward them in a manner that he or she (unknowingly) creates situations in which those expectations are fulfilled.
I never really thought that I was one to have them but recently I’ve noticed that I do make them, particularly in education. I have given up any hope to receive an A because I’ve accepted the fact that I am a B or maybe even a A- student. I’m average and I will never excel the way I see other people do all around me particularly in the business world.
It’s upsetting to see this. One of my friends was telling me how his girlfriend was bitching about needing a 100 on her final to save her grade and feeling hopeless. He says, “She needs to figure it out. I did. I figured out ways that would help me to well and which did not. If she really wants that grade she will work for it.” Thinking back on this now when finals are around the corner, I’ve calculated what grades I can get and even if I were to get 100s, there is no way of receiving an A. I’ve accepted it. I don’t know how to get out of this. I don’t know how to realize I am capable of better.
"You have so much potential, you just need to believe in yourself!"
The past has been creeping in a lot lately.
Its still weird to think that the past has turned into the past.
Last night I learned that I can’t forgive someone that I don’t feel deserves forgiveness. It’s an obvious concept but for someone who always forgives someone, no matter the situations, it’s hard to grasp. I don’t know how to live with myself deal not forgiving someone.
For the people who have known us, if they are biased based on our past or have moved passed it all, as well as people who haven’t been there and don’t know. I just wonder this because I don’t want to view you in a negative way. I want people to see you how I do and understand why I’ve done all that I have.
"I am a girl that can never be defined."
And I truly believe in that. People look at me and can make a lot of assumptions depending on the situation. People can see me as a ratchet, an otaku, a business student, a book nerd, etc. And that’s all me. I do believe I’m multifaceted and cannot be defined into one stereotype. And I have to hold true to myself and not bend to other’s whims all the time.