Even though we aren’t super close and don’t talk all the time, you’re still my fam. I’ve seen him go through those types of thoughts and it broke my heart to see him so low, I can only imagine what goes through your mind. I hope you choose to ride through this, it’ll be okay in time. Just remember that the actions done by other’s is not in your control, rather how you react to those acts is. I’ll always be here to listen. Love you J.
Still odd to think that it’s been 3 years since you’ve been gone Lolo. It’s always been a little odd around your death anniversary. I went to Junior prom the day you died and now today I celebrate my one month with him.
You’re in a better place, I just hope that you keep watching over Lola with her mind going more and more each time I come to visit her. You were never much for words so I’ll leave it at that. I love you Lolo. RIP
Being in college I stopped reading books out of leisure and it’s sad. I take a year to get through a basic book because I haven’t had the time to sit and read. Actually, honestly I’ve become so lazy to read or think I’ve been watching animes, tv shows, mangas, memoirs, media that requires minimal thinking.
After watching The Great Gatsby I tried remembering high school english class, dissecting the book of themes, symbols, and other literary devices. And honestly I don’t read carefully into anything enough to notice those things.
In recent times I’ve started getting interested in memoirs and non-fiction type books that tend to lack those things that novels have so my brain has gone dull. While most people don’t read or don’t care enough about books like this but realizing this yesterday after I started reading Great Gatsby, it was actually…shocking and saddening. Reminder that this year, this semester has gotten to new lows. At one time reading was what kept me sane…and how did it get on the sidelines?
I feel like I just got to a whole new low of failure.
Wow, never have I ever gotten grades this low…I’ve only gotten 3 back and it already looks depressing. Let’s see if I still stay above a 3.0 this semester…
Your personality reminds me a lot like K.’s. And I haven’t seen a personality like that since her.
I started thinking about it when you stuck up for our friend even in a room full of people didn’t like her or never spoke up, or even when your friends from home talked shit about our other friends too, you stuck up for them again. How from first meeting you people may think you’re a total douche bag by the way you look but after talking to you a few times people learn you’re actually quite intelligent and care about your friends.
It reminds me of K. and how I got to know her. How I used to think she was a bitch but after getting to know her, she turned out to be a true friend who stuck up for you no matter how many people shit on you. She’s outgoing and has some unpopular opinions and isn’t afraid to speak them and is much more intelligent than she leads on.
I think that’s why I feel like it’s kinda sad to see you go but I mean, we were never close but hanging out with you with everyone else made it even more entertaining. And writing this post will probably look like I like you, but it’s not like that. It’s the fact that everyone is leaving for the summer and you won’t come back in the fall with the rest of us. You won’t be hanging out with us on the weekends anymore, which reminds me of how in time we all won’t be hanging out anymore.
But anyways, thanks for somewhat caring when you did and well, good luck wherever you end up going, maybe I’ll see you’re article in Playboy or Esquire someday haha. Congratulations.
