I was Here.

I hope what she's saying isn't true.

Thu, 23 May 2013 20:41:00 -0400

Even though we aren’t super close and don’t talk all the time, you’re still my fam. I’ve seen him go through those types of thoughts and it broke my heart to see him so low, I can only imagine what goes through your mind. I hope you choose to ride through this, it’ll be okay in time. Just remember that the actions done by other’s is not in your control, rather how you react to those acts is. I’ll always be here to listen. Love you J.

Blew through way too much money in one day…

Wed, 22 May 2013 19:02:10 -0400

Blew through way too much money in one day…

Trying this place out (at Hai Lua)

Wed, 22 May 2013 14:13:33 -0400

Trying this place out (at Hai Lua)

Best purchase of today :D #RedSox #BostonStrong (at Lids Locker...

Wed, 22 May 2013 14:02:29 -0400

Best purchase of today :D #RedSox #BostonStrong (at Lids Locker Room)

Pumped!

Wed, 22 May 2013 10:21:26 -0400

Looks like this summer is going to be an eventful one, I mean besides being in Tokyo for a month haha. Birthday party, graduation party, 5 days at the Vineyard, cousins maybe visiting? And there’s my friends from home I want to see too. Minus unpacking and cleaning my room, I’m pretty excited about how this summer is panning out.

And the past comes back to haunt my thoughts

Wed, 22 May 2013 01:31:03 -0400

Of course they’d come before I sleep. I love punishing myself with the past’s pain.

I blame this emotional moment on my period. Stupid PMSing.

phojayjay: I’ve been trying to keep our love on a mature, adult level but lets be honest; ever...

Tue, 21 May 2013 20:40:14 -0400

phojayjay:

I’ve been trying to keep our love on a mature, adult level but lets be honest; ever since we’ve became legitimately official it is quite difficult to keep in all my happiness inside of me. It’s like feeling what love was for the first time. I’m happy you came and stayed in my life. I love you Ashley.

Yay congratulations guyfrand <3 (at Lasell College)

Sun, 19 May 2013 20:43:18 -0400

Yay congratulations guyfrand <3 (at Lasell College)

The graduate (at Solar House)

Sun, 19 May 2013 08:57:03 -0400

The graduate (at Solar House)

Parentals 22nd anniversary dinner. (at Mateo Residence)

Sat, 18 May 2013 19:12:28 -0400

Parentals 22nd anniversary dinner. (at Mateo Residence)

It’s not summer unless I get my mangos #food

Fri, 17 May 2013 17:45:28 -0400

It’s not summer unless I get my mangos #food

Lola & Momma before leaving for the airport <3 #family

Thu, 16 May 2013 15:16:05 -0400

Lola & Momma before leaving for the airport <3 #family

Going home in less than 12 hours

Thu, 16 May 2013 03:45:00 -0400

And I’m most excited to be able to see you again. More than anything or anyone. It’s hasn’t even been a week since I’ve seen you last and here I am missing you so much. I probably won’t see you until Saturday or Sunday but none the less, I cannot wait. I just want to be with you <3

wthellmichelle: my life is a constant cycle of waiting until the weekend and then not doing...

Wed, 15 May 2013 19:23:59 -0400

wthellmichelle:

my life is a constant cycle of waiting until the weekend and then not doing anything when it comes

basically the beginning of my spring semester.

Grades.

Wed, 15 May 2013 13:42:23 -0400

amberv71993:

Wow, I really really fucked up my GPA this semester. But it’s way too late for me to change anything now. It was my own fault…I lost sight of what was important.

Lesson learned.

3 years

Wed, 15 May 2013 11:50:34 -0400

Still odd to think that it’s been 3 years since you’ve been gone Lolo. It’s always been a little odd around your death anniversary. I went to Junior prom the day you died and now today I celebrate my one month with him.

You’re in a better place, I just hope that you keep watching over Lola with her mind going more and more each time I come to visit her. You were never much for words so I’ll leave it at that. I love you Lolo. RIP

"Look, once you get what you want that’s when you’ve got something to lose."

Wed, 15 May 2013 03:24:46 -0400

“Look, once you get what you want that’s when you’ve got something to lose.”

- Anna Stern - The O.C.

i dont know why people are making such a big deal of it. There's plenty of other women that have that issue. Her being a celebrity should mean it's a good ,heroic and brave example of what can be done. Afterall it's a pair of boobs, they aren't the holy grail. Guys hold them in too high of an esteem. Plus the Media doesn't help. There's no reason for it to get so much coverage im sure apart from the positive message it sends, Angelina wouldnt want the insane attention

Tue, 14 May 2013 22:34:00 -0400

I agree completely. I’m just disgusted that these guys care more about how she won’t have boobs than her living a (hopefully) cancer free life.

tastyhumanburgers: qu1te-c0ntrary: sad-teeth: So today...

Tue, 14 May 2013 22:22:00 -0400

tastyhumanburgers:

qu1te-c0ntrary:

sad-teeth:

So today Angelina Jolie had double mastectomy, which is the removal of one’s breasts, to prevent Breast cancer. So instead of praising Angelina on her bravery, men on Twitter decided to ridicule her, even calling her stupid for removing her breasts. For those of you on Tumblr that are attacking Feminists about being delusional about sexism against women and misogyny here’s your fucking proof that sexism and misogyny exists.

Just goes to show what’s valued about women. Not her life, her body. I kinda don’t even want to get into a rant. It’s just going to make me mad.
Edit: oh, and I didn’t even see the one about doing it for attention. Yes, a woman would go through something so mentally difficult as a masectomy for attention. Not because he mother died from breast cancer and she has an 87% risk herself. It’s because she hasn’t been in the news lately.

Ew the first one

Been watching the news about it and it came on CNN again just now. The tweets disgusts me so much.

To Those Nights.

Tue, 14 May 2013 03:57:00 -0400

Justin Chon’s part significantly got to me the most out of all the characters. I’ve had so many imaginary conversations with ex boyfriends I’ve never met because they lived 8000+ miles away but the ones that stuck out the most were the post break up ones. I was bitter, spat out hurtful words to the air, saying how angry and hurt he made me but after all of that it didn’t do much good because he’d never hear my words. But just like the character “Audrey,” he would respond in a similar way, how we weren’t meant to be and in time we’ll find someone who will be better for one another.

And somehow watching this short film and having that all in my head brought back my doubts and fears and low self esteem. The feeling of not being good enough to be loved or keep someone. When I see my friends getting hurt over guys who don’t return their feelings or they just never find the right guy, I wonder how I got someone.

And the other night I thought back of the times in January and on after with her. Looking back now, it’s like watching a movie. Watching myself countlessly get hurt over you, cry over you, and then pretend I’m okay. How did I live with myself in this way for so many months? The human spirit is so weak yet so strong: no matter how unlikely the chances are, if you truly believe in it and have hope you push through. I watch myself break and fall apart more and more and it hurts now to watch.

Maybe that’s part of why I drank with friends or went out to party so much in February, and that’s why the Clementine and Coke night, and the big white house party night happened. I didn’t want to think about you and her anymore, I wanted to forget and just have it be about me and having fun, at least temporarily. Obviously that was not my sole reason for doing all that I did, but you played a role.

Just thinking back on those last few months in general still hurts. But somehow I like to dwell in the pain because it’s what I do best.

It’s 4am. I really should never be up this late or else depressing thoughts come into my head like these.