"The future doesn’t proceed along a single course. There ought to be a future we can choose"
Kiyoko - Akira 1988
Kiyoko - Akira 1988
Although it was a bit of a struggle getting up this morning from day light savings, I got an email saying I got accepted for an internship interview I actually wanted. Yes, I got really excited like most people do but then my low self esteem kicked in. I already doubted myself and said I wouldn’t get it because of past experiences. I don’t think I’m smart enough or knowledgable enough about my field to be qualified for this internship which for all I know maybe I am.
I was looking at other internships that were provided through my school and there was one that paid minimum wage, 40 hours a week and through my own eyes I felt more capable of that kind of job. Why? Probably because of my low standards for myself.
I know that I’m someone who beats themselves up inside all the time but I honestly feel I’ve never worked so hard this semester and even last with the grades to show it. People say interviews are all about being confident in yourself but why can’t I? Ugh. Can’t I just stay in school forever.
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Last night into this afternoon was a nice little break from reality. *sigh*
I’ve come to a realization I really like spending time with myself. After doing some volunteer for at the soup kitchen, I went to get bubble tea, pho, and stuff from CVS. It was completely relaxing and enjoyable and I felt light. I like being able to do little things for myself like this. It felt nice to not be by myself doing work for once, like I had a million things to do weighing on my mind.
I really should do this for myself once a week. I know I don’t have the hardest life so I don’t want to say I deserve to have breaks like this, but I’ll just say it’s nice.
Welp, time for a nap and back to work. All the semesters of being so laid back has finally come back to hit me this semester. Must keep pushing forward.